Today is the day I start my life over. Today is the day I stop selling myself short. The day I finally give up on the people who have given up on me. Today is the day I embrace my failures, and note them as the strength that will push me to be successful. Today is the day I move on from my past, and deal with the misdirected emotions that have been endlessly fluttering about my mind.
Today is the day I let go of the anger, the pain, the hurt. Today is the day I will no longer cry over those who have wronged me. Today I stand up for myself and what I know in my heart is right. Today I will have my head held high. Today I begin to appreciate my imperfections. Today I firmly believe I am better than my shortcomings, and the good parts of me make a good counter for my flaws.
Today I accept who I am, what I am, and where I am. Today I stop being scared to love again. Today I realize that real love, honest, true, no jealousy, no bullshit, pure love is out there, and when I find it I will know. Today I know that I will continue to work on myself. To accept myself, to love myself, so that I can contribute to the no bullshit honest love, when it comes, which is not, can't be, won't be right now.
Today I realize that being alone doesn't mean being lonely. Today I take the consideration I have for others onto myself. Today I become my own best friend, who I will treat with respect and thoughtfulness.
Today I stop punishing myself for who I was. For the things I've done, for the mistakes I've made. Today I let go of regrets because they have made me who I am today, and I do not regret anything about me. Today I realize that I try fucking hard to make people happy, and I deserve to be happy too.
Today I take control over my emotions, and stop letting people hurt my feelings. Today I stand firm and hold tight to who I am.
Today I am proclaiming that heartache is not the worst feeling out there. Today I accept that I am a fish in a sea, that everyone has had their heart broken, that everyone has felt, or will feel exactly the way I do. Today I remember that cheating lovers do not bring the apocalypse, that I've made it through alive and just fine with the first one who did it.
Today I am determined to remind myself how strong I am. Today I celebrate the people I will be able to help when I teach them, counsel them, because I have lived the tough moments. I understand temptation and self hatred, I remember the darkness of not knowing your path. Today I recollect my past and realize that I am no longer the scared little girl that I once was.
Today I remember to be grateful for everyone in my life. Big part or small part, wonderful or terrible, who challenged me to think harder, move faster, and keep living.
Today I push forward and stop looking back.
Today I start over again.
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